Twenty Years

A lot has happened in the almost 22 years since my heart transplant; some indelible, some forgettable. 2001, 911 happened while I was in the hospital in CCU pretransplant in Manhattan. 2003, the space shuttle Columbia made its first and last flight. 2005, Hurricane Katrina hit the southeast United States. In 2009, President Barrack Obama was inaugurated. 2012, Queen Elizabeth II celebrated her Diamond Jubilee. 2019, Tiger Woods claimed his fifth Masters title. In 2020, John Lennon’s Imagine was remastered and released. 2020 was heavily defined by the COVID pandemic, impacting every part of our lives.

In 2001, Dr. Les Cooper and I started working on the Myocarditis Foundation, officially receiving IRS approval in 2005. From my perspective, one of our greatest achievements has been in making “myocarditis” a household word. Now in 2023, in part due to COVID, not only the word but a rudimentary understanding of what it means permeates our culture. Dr. Cooper could articulate all the medical advances. In summary, we accomplished, with your help, almost everything we set out to do, except find a cure. So, our work continues.

In the past almost 22 years, some of my newer doctors look like they are the age of my children, yet I continue to be impressed with their skill in the practice of medicine.  (This generation of doctors knows something about myocarditis.) Many of the doctors who have been with me from the beginning of my illness are now retired. Drug therapies haven’t changed much in 30 years. However, advances have been made in mechanical devices as well as in blood surveillance tools to monitor allograft health. New drug therapies without all the dreaded side effects, both long and short term, are on the horizon, but the approval process is very long.

Personally, these years have flown by; every year goes by even faster. For us transplants, the passage of time is both a blessing and a concern. Amy Silverstein passed away this week- 35 years out from two consecutive heart transplants, a few short weeks from the date her essay was published in the New York Times. If you go to her website,, she leaves a legacy of transplant advocacy which she describes as, “…an essential basis from which to address the longstanding unfavorable positioning and underfunding of research by NIH and FDA “. She suggests that you can impact research funding by sharing your #truthintransplant story with the largest organization of transplant professionals (American Society of Transplantation) by filling out the form on her website.

Maybe it is time for us to speak up.

The Gratitude Paradox

As so many of you are well aware, I’ve recently been hospitalized with a respiratory virus. Those most at risk to serious outcomes of this virus are babies and immunosuppressed individuals. It’s been a very trying time for me and my family, coping with both the illness and the side effects of the medications used to treat the illness. This is not an unusual occurrence for heart transplant patients. We are always at risk for infections, rejections, vasculopathy and cancer due to the immunosuppression. Every hospitalization forces us to confront our very existence.

On Tuesday, April 18, 2023, the New York Times published an Opinion/Guest Essay entitled, “My Transplanted Heart and I Will Soon Die”, written by Amy Silverstein, the author of Sick Girl. Amy has lived 35 years with two different donor hearts. She honored her hearts with “compulsive compliance” with the strictest interpretation of transplant protocols. Despite maintaining “sparkling cardiac health”, she is dying of metastatic lung cancer, a consequence of long-term immunosuppressive drugs. Her essay is a cry for better medications, greater life-expectancy from current protocols which she describes as antiquated and more attention to utilization of organs she feels are being wasted given current policies.

I’ll let you find and read the entire article if you wish. I would recommend it because she has a lot to say about the state of transplant medicine which impacts us all. She points out a pressure for transplant recipients to not express, much less demand medicines that allow for a longer, healthier life. She feels like this narrative discourages transplant recipients from talking freely about the compromising, life-threatening side effects of medicines we must take. She calls it “the gratitude paradox”.

My take on this is that besides our closest family and friends the “miracle” narrative prevents the public from really understanding how difficult being a transplant really is. It must be easy to live this way because we make it look that way. It isn’t. I am consistently unreliable in my attendance. I’m often in isolation at home for weeks at a time. And I don’t sleep well given the drugs. My family worries, my church supports me in prayer and my best friends thankfully text often.

Amy closes her article by sharing a conversation with her doctor, who sat in front of her crying upon sharing the diagnosis and prognosis of her cancer. With wry humor, Amy said, “I sacrificed my whole body for this heart. I kept her perfect to the end.” This forces me to say that it doesn’t seem fair.

It is anathema to my personality to see my transplant as anything other than a miracle. However, I can’t help but thank Amy for her last-ditch efforts to challenge the heart transplant system, to tell her truth, and for trying to make the transplant world better for those of us still fighting for every day and those to come;  I wish her Godspeed.

Life-Saving Transplant Drugs: The Bane of Our Existence

Every Monday for the past 21 years, I’ve “poured” my medications for the week into my 7 daypill dispenser. The dispenser is a lifesaver because it helps me track whether I’ve taken my drugs or not.  On any given day, depending on how healthy I am, I take a minimum of 17 pills in the morning and another 10 pills twelve hours later. I also have a cadre of “prn” meds to take “as needed” to help me through minor crises and a bunch of inhaled medications to treat an asthma exacerbation or respiratory issue. If you are new at this or the least bit confused about whether your symptom is minor or not, report it immediately to your doctor, and wait for instructions.

There are yellow warning labels on the side of the medication bottles that say, “May cause nausea (check), dizziness (check), diarrhea (check); or there may be other warnings, “Don’t eat grapefruit”, “ Don’t drive”, “May decrease effectiveness of birth control”, “Avoid pregnancy”, “Take with food or milk”, “Avoid contact with people with contagious diseases”, “Avoid exposure to sunlight”, “Check with doctor before drinking alcohol”, or “Do not skip doses”, to name a few. Take all those warnings seriously. Just for your own edification, ask your pharmacist for the pharmaceutical package insert, which lists whole host of other warnings, like “weight gain” (check), “insomnia (check) and even “psychosis” (sadly, check). If the side effects upset you, scare you, or leave you feeling insecure, call your transplant team.  The most important point I want to make is that if you are having symptoms of any kind, that are NOT listed on the bottle or the insert, it doesn’t mean those symptoms are not happening to you-report them to your doctor anyway and stand firm in your reporting. Medical practitioners are constantly learning from our experiences.

Pharmacists will often change vendors and buy the cheapest generic form of the drugs. I am assuming they are more profitable. Many of the drugs we take are manufactured in third world countries that may or may not behave the same inside of you. I get tinnitus, ringing in the ears, from some generic brands of drugs by the same name. You’ll have a fight on your hands with your insurance company if you insist on taking the proprietary drug made in the US, because it costs more, but sometimes you must engage. Your transplant physician will help.

The biggest frustration with tracking the drugs is that the refills don’t come due on the same day necessitating frequent trips to your pharmacy. Lots of my drugs are on automatic refill but sometimes that doesn’t always work. Make friends with your pharmacist. Let them know when your refills are urgently needed, meaning you are completely out or let them know if you have a little leeway. Most drugs they can get by the next day, so plan ahead. We as transplants can’t afford to not take these drugs as directed. Our lives depend on it.

Candace Moose, Co-Founder of the Myocarditis Foundation

New Year, New You

They say it’s important to have goals. My primary goal these past 21 years has been survival, and secondarily to leave the world a better place for future generations. The clock starts again in the New Year for all maintenance protocols that quantify my health and verify that all is as good as it can be. So, scheduling begins: Dermatology appointments to rule out skin cancer, quarterly visits with my Transplant Cardiologists, Dexa Scan to rule out osteoporosis and follow up visit with Endocrinology, Mammogram to rule out breast cancer, Opthalmology to check for glaucoma and cataracts which are common side effects of transplant drugs, Interventional Cardiology visit to check defibrillator device, every five years with Gastroenterology to schedule a colonoscopy, to name a few.

The New Year is also a great time to re-evaluate and reset your diet and fitness goals. Depending on bloodwork and cath results, which determine whether your commitment to fitness and diet is required or imperative. I find it very hard for me to keep a fitness routine, as overuse of a repetitive exercise often leads to injury and a stint with Physical Therapy. It’s also very hard for me to keep a stable weight, given medication, balance issues, susceptibility to infections, and issues that side-line an exercise program, my best intentions to move are easily compromised.  The overall goal, however, is to just keep trying, adjusting, and adapting. According to the wisdom of Winston Churchill, “Never, never, never give up.”

Then there are New Year quality of life type goals: travel, hobbies, special celebrations, new jobs. I am the eternal optimist. I keep making travel plans that ultimately get cancelled because of the virus or injury or transplant issue du jour. But again, don’t give up. Keep trying.

My sister recently passed following a long battle with breast cancer. In those 36 years, she made every minute of her life count. She climbed mountains, hiked, camped, and kayaked as often as she could. I’m a hotel person, myself, not a camper. The moral of the story? Make it count. Do everything you can to become or get healthy. It’s a gift that requires work.

Holidays 2022

This holiday season I wish you peace, peace in your body, your mind, and your spirit. There have been times in my transplant life when things were not peaceful. Sometimes it’s due to medications; medications that don’t let you sleep, make you irritable, or make you hungry. Some holiday seasons are filled with worry; having had tests and awaiting results, getting test results that indicate one of your other organs is not peaceful or perhaps you feel unsettled about an as yet unidentified health issue.

Sometimes holidays are difficult because of life stressors that have nothing to do with being a transplant; loss of loved ones, financial instability, or relationships gone awry. Not all holidays are merry and bright. If they are not, and you need help, reach out; there are always staff, professionals, hot-lines, and emergency personnel available to help. Share with someone that your need help.

However, if you are good, reach out to others with a message of Holiday cheer. Make someone else merry. Help others; donate to Food Banks, volunteer, or walk dogs at an animal shelter. Nothing helps me forget about my own issues like doing something for others. Foster peace in your spirit and in your life. I believe it contributes to good health. Peace is a valuable commodity, perhaps the most valuable. So Happy Peaceful New Year!

Candace Moose

Co-Founder The Myocarditis Foundation

The Challenges of the Holidays

November 28, 2022

There is no question, the holidays are my favorite time of year. I love the lights, the decorations, the gift giving and receiving, the hustle and bustle, all the holiday-themed movies and of course the spirit of love that pervades the very air we breathe. However, the holidays present many challenges to victims of myocarditis. But try as we might, all holidays don’t work out as planned. For those who have experienced loss, there is always an empty seat at the table.

My first holiday after the heart transplant, to be honest, was a sad affair. I think we were all suffering from PTSD that would take years to resolve. I went home from the hospital on IV chemotherapy which had to be discontinued in early December because my white cell count was too low, which meant no family gatherings. We are a loud and ruckus group, my family, with a penchant for fun and overindulgence, so to add insult to injury, after all we had been through, a quiet affair with just my husband, son, and I, seemed unfair. Yet, I was alive, while others had not survived. Even today, as I hang ornaments on my tree, I think of the parents of Brad, Rhett, Andy, Danielle, Sarah, Michael, and far too many others, and it breaks my heart. Thinking of them motivates me give more of my time and resources to the Foundation.

17 years later, I was hospitalized in isolation during the holidays in New York, with an esoteric, contagious respiratory virus. When I looked out the window of my hospital room on Christmas day, not one car was parked either side of the street. It was apocalyptic. But it did snow, and that small thing lifted my heart. My husband was situated in a family hospital housing room upstairs. He too became desperately ill as the week progressed, diagnosed in the ER with a respiratory virus; not the same one I had, so we couldn’t see each. It was a comfort just knowing he was there. Our children and grandchildren missed us terribly, and we them. I remember turning on my TV to watch the burning log and listen to Christmas carols. I remember feeling so grateful that I had a family who loved me, even if from afar. The Holidays, a season of love, near or far, on earth and in heaven.

The emotional and physical toll a catastrophic disease like Myocarditis takes on both the patient and their families are immeasurable. The physical insult takes time to resolve but the emotional toll, especially for those who have experienced loss, is immeasurable. The Myocarditis Foundation is here for you. We have been working for many years to educate the public about this once considered rare disease. Help us collect data for publication by participating in our Emotional Toll study, conducted in partnership with the Mayo Clinic. Participation information can be found on our website: or by calling our Executive Director Gen Rumore. Happy Holidays, dear ones.

My Good Life

October 25, 2022

Next month I’m headed to Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, Florida, to visit my old heart, which resides in the office of my Myocarditis Foundation Co-Founder, Dr. Leslie Cooper.  I donated my old heart to his research when I was well enough to understand the contribution his research meant to my recovery. I remember asking Dr. Deng when I woke up after the transplant surgery if it really needed to be replaced. Somehow, after all I’d been through, I had trouble believing it had failed me.

For fifty years, I had depended on that heart, and it had never let me down. My father always said I wore my feelings on my sleeve, but the truth was, my heart took the lead in all decisions made in my life up to that point. My heart had served me well. It chose wisely my husband of 50 years. It guided me in my career choice of becoming a nursing. I chose a host of wonderful friends with my heart, and they chose me back because of my heart. Several people said to me after the transplant, “I can’t believe they had to replace your heart, because your first one was so beautiful!”.

Mine is the kind of heart that cries for joy: when an Olympian wins a medal, when a marathoner finishes a race, when an actor wins an Academy Award, when someone performs an unexpected, random act of kindness. Mine is the kind of heart that cries when people get married, or a baby is baptized. My heart believes that good always wins in the end.

I’m a believer in the power of love to save, to heal, to restore, and to forgive. The heart is the organ of love, in poetry, music and art. Yet in all those years, I’d never seen my damaged heart. And now is the time. I have a lot to thank it for. I expect the experience to be an emotional one, but a healing one.

The Aging Heart

September 26, 2022

October 1st is the 21st anniversary of my heart transplant. We call it our rebirthday, the day we were given a second chance to live. What a wild and wonderful ride it has been. I’ve done everything I could do over these past years to keep this heart healthy medically, physically, and spiritually, and I’ve been given so much. But the heart is aging anyway.

It’s curious to find myself at this point in life even though I knew all along that it was coming, that there was an endpoint. How do we deal with it? I suggest no differently than we’ve handled our transplanted life: with positivity, with courage, and with an understanding that we never were in control anyway. We stumble, we fall, we get discouraged, we struggle to hold up under treatments and procedures that make us crazy, cause us pain, or make us sick. Sometimes, the worst parts are temporary. Ask for help, be that for medication, support, or prayers from medical professionals, friends, and churches. Count on those you can count on in your life.

No one can really understand this transplant life except those of us who live it. But you are not alone. Your transplant team stands ready to stand with you. Don’t hesitate to reach out, in fact, fight to be heard if you must, but speak up.

Transplant is not the best answer to treat myocarditis. It was the only treatment available to us at the time. It was never intended to be a cure. It remains a temporary solution. More diagnostics leading to early diagnosis and more treatments administered earlier in the disease process before the heart is damaged beyond recovery, is the answer. Give generously to The Myocarditis Foundation. Help us fund more research.

21 Years as an Advanced Heart Failure Patient

August 29, 2022

It’s hard to write when you in the middle of a crisis, but that is where we live as heart transplants: crisis to crisis. Life, wonderful life, seems to clip along for a period of time, and then, all of a sudden it doesn’t. No matter the issue at hand, we do our best to understand it medically and to cope with it psychologically.

I am celebrating 21 years post-heart transplant on October 1st. When folks ask how I am doing, to most casual acquaintances, I answer vaguely that I am currently experiencing some issues. Lots of my contemporaries are experiencing all kinds of serious health issues for the first time in their lives; so, it is not unusual to hear friends describe a health issue at my age in response to the question, “How are you doing?”.  I’ve been labeled an Advanced Heart Failure patient for 21 years and have required frequent medical attention. A common response is, “Well, you’ve certainly have had a good run.” True indeed.

I’ve seen my children married to wonderful spouses and enjoyed being part of my grandchildren’s lives. I’ve tried to make a difference by co-founding The Myocarditis Foundation with Dr. Leslie Cooper. And I’m very grateful to Gen and Joe Rumore for taking over the leadership of the foundation when I stepped back from day-to-day operations. Their commitment is palpable. We’ve helped many people, advanced the science by awarding research grants, and contributed to making “myocarditis” a household word, thanks in part to COVID. My particular life-long passion has been mission work. I am a heart transplant because of the two immunizations I was required by the CDC to have before leaving on a mission trip to Africa-a trip that never happened because of 9/11 and because I became catastrophically ill with an autoimmune form of myocarditis. I’ve enjoyed public speaking on topics that are important to me: organ donation, The Myocarditis Foundation, my faith, and mission projects.

I’ve met a lot of very special people along the way: doctors, nurses, other heart transplant patients, parents who have lost children to myocarditis, siblings who have lost siblings, friends who have lost friends. We understand, as much as possible, each other’s suffering. Lines between doctors and patients are blurred. We have access to information and support, from medical professionals and each other. People said I had a good heart to begin with. My new heart is even better.

It’s been fascinating watching the field advance over the years, meeting executives and founders of companies that are developing treatments and diagnostic tools to support myocarditis patients. There is still much to do to eradicate this disease, but progress is being made.

Yes, I’ve have had a very good run, but I’m not done yet. In fact, I’m going for a record. As Tom Petty so famously sang in his song “Swingin’”, “I’m goin’ down swinging, like Sonny Liston.”

Candace Moose

Heart Transplant: Owner’s Manual

July 28.2022


I think the human body is far more complicated than people realize, especially when diagnosed with myocarditis and Giant Cell Myocarditis. We’re all as different on the inside as we are on the outside.  I remember Dr. Deng saying we’re not like cars. When you lift the hood, we are not the same. As well, our journeys are very similar yet very different. Transplant anti-rejection medication cocktails must be customized to each individual patient. I never met another heart transplant who was on the same medication regime as me. Nor have I ever met another patient who has rejected as much as I have. (Rejection is the presence of white blood cells in the tissue sample that is removed from the inside of the heart during a biopsy. The presence of WBCs in the tissue means that the body is recognizing the heart as foreign which is treated with increased medication). Likewise, I probably have had more biopsies than others because of all the rejections; and downstream, more steroids. Thanks to the development of Allomap, a simple blood test for rejection which became standard of care in 2010, many of us have far fewer biopsies. All this doesn’t make me special, but it does make me complicated. There are a myriad of reasons why you are incredibly complicated as well and require special treatment.

Our Advanced Heart Transplant Team is challenged to practice their craft on our ever-changing presentation over time, as well, meaning, the challenges we face in year one are very different than the challenges patients face a decade or two out. And believe me, I don’t pretend to understand it all. I do my best to keep up: I ask lots of questions, keep my doctor informed about what’s different and ultimately leave my care up to my doctor to figure out.

At twenty years, my care is all about maintenance while keeping an eye on the effect of years of harsh drugs on my vital organs and ruling out cancers which are more prevalent when immunosuppressed. Sometimes it’s hard to keep up with these old bones: Dermatology twice a year to rule out skin cancer (I’ve had 5 Moh’s procedures), Bones Densities to track effect of calcium leaching steroids, Dentist twice a year to keep gums healthy, Colonoscopies, Mammographies, to name a few, and follow-up on persistent medical issues that were present prior to being a transplant.  Yikes!

Sound impossible? You bet, but because it’s so important, you will do it. For yourself; for your donor; for every family that has a loved one who didn’t make it but are rooting for your success.

Read Candace’s Story of her Transplant Games

June 22, 2022

While living in Raleigh, I had the opportunity to participate in the National Transplant Olympics in Louisville, Kentucky, as a member of team North Carolina. The team was sponsored by the state chapter of the National Kidney Foundation. The team had to raise the money for all 30 of us (with chaperones for children) to go for three days: airfare, hotels, meals, and uniforms (tee shirts). I co-chaired a poker night at Brier Creek Country Club, with the help of many friends, neighbors, and Team NC teammates, and raised $30,000., enough to cover all our expenses for the next Olympics two years later in Pittsburg. It was an exhilarating evening.

All the participants in the Olympic competition were solid organ transplants: heart, lungs, liver, kidney, intestines, and pancreas. Some of the participants were children, some blind, some amputees, surgical scars visible on most everyone. Emotional scars not as obvious. All of us on immunosuppressive drugs, feeling lucky, fragile, and grateful. The kickoff event is the Parade of Athletes by state in uniform preceded by the donor families under their own banner, the people who made it possible for us to live, welcomed by a standing ovation and an avalanche of tears.

Team North Carolina was coached by a wonderful man Bill, a kidney transplant himself; a great man and a dear friend. I didn’t know exactly where I would fit in; I just knew I needed to be there. I was thinking egg toss, only to discover this was not an event. Coach Bill found a place for me in two relay swim events doing the backstroke. The other three women on the team were all experienced and very talented competitive swimmers; some even swam on college teams. I grew up swimming in my grandmother’s backyard pool. Of course, I could do a backstroke! What I couldn’t do was the underwater flip turn. In turning, I lost my sense of direction and couldn’t tell which way was up. I was afraid I would drown, what Simone Biles, gymnast, described as the “zoomies” when she feared losing her sense of direction, so she declined to participate in some of the 2022 Chinese Olympics. The referees made a special accommodation, allowing me to turn at the wall, my head above water. Special accommodations were made for every competitor who needed one, because the point was to participate, to finish, but not to win. Despite my personal unimpressive results, because my teammates were so skilled, I won two silver medals. My late sister, Mary Ann, my ever-present cheerleader, since then a victim of breast cancer, was there to support me. I couldn’t have done it without her.

Well, Team NC won the national competition that year; we took first place!! Many of us didn’t even realize it was a national competition, much less being aware that we were winning so many events. That is what made it so wonderful.


Heart Disease in Women

May 12, 2022

I think all my physicians would agree that my Giant Cell Myocarditis was the result of my body’s reaction to two immunizations. The early published medical literature though sparse documented some cases of GCM due to immunizations. The simplest way to explain it is that there were some cells on the surface of my heart that were very similar to the immune cells the immunization antigen was supposed to bond with, causing my body to try to destroy my heart. All my life, I had weird reactions and over-reactions to drugs, so I took very few of them and only when necessary. I had retired from 29 years in a variety of nursing positions and was looking forward to doing short term missionary work in Africa.

Almost one year exactly from the date of my retirement, I had two immunizations required by the CDC to travel to that part of the world to prevent me from acquiring diseases that we do not have in the U.S. Two hours after the immunizations, my heart began to misbehave, beating too rapidly, too irregularly and too forcefully. I was a healthy 49-year-old who logged at least 10 miles per week with vigorous walking for years and that summer had spent evenings crewing on Long Island Sound. We have no vascular heart disease in the family. So, I didn’t expect a heart issue; I thought it was menopause. It was a Friday, there was no cause for alarm, so I went about my life. As the days progressed, my heart symptoms were less subtle and persistent then advanced to shortness of breath on exercise.

Early in my nursing career I had worked in CCU. Almost all of patients were male and had experienced crushing chest pain, radiating down an arm and profuse sweating. I had none of that. My husband made me go to our Family Doctor when I came back from my walk and was short of breath. He offered to take me; I said confidently “no”, I was fine and could handle it myself.

I was at the doctor when he opened at 9 am. My EKG result was grossly abnormal so I was admitted to the ER, and subsequently a cardiac floor until EMT transport could be arranged to transfer me to the closest interventional heart hospital for supposed bypass surgery.  I was finally convinced this was a real problem when the first set of bloodwork done in the ER revealed an extremely high Troponin-an enzyme that is released into the bloodstream when the heart muscle is damaged. It was all downhill from there, a story likely very similar to every other myocarditis patient who ended up being transplanted.

I wrote this story today to emphasize that women experience heart disease differently than men and therefore delay in seeking treatment. Heart disease is the #1 killer of women in the U.S., with even more alarming statistics for African American women, perhaps related to a cumulative lack of access to healthcare throughout their lives. Because our symptoms are generally more subtle, GI upset, pain in jaw, fatigue, to name a few, and because we’re so busy putting other people’s needs ahead of our own, statistics prove that women do not seek care as quickly as they should. Yes, myocarditis or inflammatory heart disease is decidedly different than vascular heart disease, but I postulate that some of the same behaviors of not seeking care as soon as they should, applies here as well. My delay could have cost me my life, and almost did.

For additional resources, please go to the American Heart Association website and search for the Go Red for Women campaign to learn more. * The Myocarditis Foundation has co-funded several grants to study myocarditis with AHA.


The Gift of a Good Doctor

April 12, 2022


This column was inspired by the Myocarditis Foundation Facebook post a few weeks ago celebrating National Doctor’s Day.  I’ve seen a lot of doctors over these past two decades. Some have been great; some have been good; some have been mediocre; some have been terrible. My evaluations of these doctors have been based on a few factors, not necessarily related to their skill in the practice of medicine, though that is certainly important, but rather based on whether they listened to me, made eye contact with me, and weren’t afraid to come near me. You may have had different criteria. Before I was transferred to a hospital that could handle my complex case, I felt alone, afraid, and unheard. In the other hospitals before being transferred to a tertiary care facility that performed heart transplants, I could feel when doctors were afraid to care for me, or perhaps afraid I would die on their watch, and that made me more afraid. They brushed by my bed, not coming too close, staying as briefly as possible, seeming to be in a hurry to get somewhere else, one foot out the door before they were finished speaking. Others stayed with me. I respected those who tried, even though they were out of their depth. I knew my survival was in the hands of my maker. All I needed from the doctors at that point, was for them to care.
I could tell you a few horror stories, but it is more important for me to tell you about my best physician encounter. From the moment I met Dr. Deng, then a member of the Advanced Center for Cardiac Care at New York Presbyterian Hospital/Columbia in New York, now at UCLA, he spoke honestly about me to my husband and me. From a haze of illness and medicine side effects, I knew he knew what he was doing, I knew he cared, and I knew he wasn’t afraid of me or my disease. I should disclose at this point that I am a Registered Nurse with ICU experience. I knew my situation was dire, but I knew then, with Dr. Deng at Columbia, I had a chance. He sat at my bedside, held both my hands, asked me to squeeze as hard as I could, as an assessment of my strength but also to communicate that he was with me.  I knew in that moment, that he would do his best, that the whole team would do their best, to save my life. So, I relaxed, handed the responsibility of my care over to them, and saved my strength for the mental fight to come.
Post-transplant, I started The Myocarditis Foundation to thank the physicians who cared for me, including my co-founder, Dr. Leslie Cooper from the Mayo Clinic, who consulted on my case. I am forever grateful for his commitment to studying this disease, his willingness to help every patient through consultation with their physicians, and to help physicians and the public to understand this devastating disease.
Dr. Federica Raia, a Professor of Education at UCLA, studies physicians, medical students, fellows and interns, filming and recording their interactions with patients to help them understand how they come across to patients. Her hope is that they will learn what they are doing that works, identify what doesn’t and adjust their behavior to be the kind of doctor they want to be, to achieve the best possible outcome. This is called Relational Medicine, acknowledging that how a doctor interacts with their patients, affects their health outcomes. To learn more about Dr. Raia’s work and to find information on how to purchase her books, please go to Full disclosure, Dr. Raia is Dr. Deng’s wife. They have been working together to improve and humanize the practice of medicine for many years.

Giant Cell Myocarditis Survivor Dedicated Her Life to Saving Others

Candace Partnered with Two Doctors to Form the Myocarditis Foundation

Candace Partnered with Two Doctors to Form the Myocarditis Foundation
Candace Moose

In August 2001 I received two immunizations to travel to Africa to do mission work. Two hours later, my heart started to beat faster, more irregularly and more forcefully. One week later I coded three times, had a defibrillator inserted and was sent home with a diagnosis of viral myocarditis.

The next day I went into cardiogenic shock and though the doctors told my husband there was only a slim chance I would survive the night, if by some miracle I did, my only chance for survival was a heart transplant.

The next day, I was transported via EMT to Columbia Medical Center where Dr. Deng was waiting for me in the Critical Coronary Unit.

He knew immediately it was giant cell myocarditis and he consulted with the world’s leading expert, Dr. Leslie Cooper from the Mayo Clinic.

Dr. Cooper’s research showed that by giving chemotherapy because of its immunosuppressant and anti-inflammatory properties, GCM patients survive until transplant if a heart were to become available. In all those weeks, I laid in my bed in the CCU praying that I would live to see my children married and my grandchildren born.

Candace MooseThe treatment was successful and a heart did come on October 1, 2001; the heart of a 17 year old boy whose parents made an unbelievably difficult decision to donate their son’s organs. I survived only because of a series of miracles: Dr. Deng’s immediate diagnosis of Giant Cell, Dr. Cooper’s research and treatment recommendations and the gift of a heart from an unknown family who suffered tremendous loss.

I said to Dr. Deng and Dr. Cooper, “What can I do to give back to you what your knowledge, expertise and care have given to me?” Together, we formed the Myocarditis Foundation to help other patients and families in the present. It is our hope that the research we fund will result in more lives saved in the future. I plan to work toward that goal for the rest of the life I am given.

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